On March 2nd, 2025, I sat down in my bed and started watching the documentary “Holy Hell” by Will Allen. This documentary describes the life of people who subscribed to the Buddhafield (almost said Buddhaland haha) cult.

This group was called a cult due to the lifestyle approach.

I would argue that cults are defined as cults due to size and structure. For example, Catholicism in the west is considered a religion instead of a cult. Cults are usually problematic due to the fact that they uproot family and friends from the person’s life. These cults purposely want to strip away life in away.

EDIT: 10-30-2026

hi I wanted bulk up my blogpost library, so I may go back into old blogs to add more content. Okay, so basically this post, I was explaining how television and the internet it’s self, in it’s design sort of builds up this master slave dynamic. With the television, we listen to what people say and take in their information. Like the news media, they always lie. Whether it’s fox news, CNN, Wall Street Shit Post of the hour, it’s all lies. YOU ARE BEING LIED TO, DUMBASS. I know so many people in my personal life, who still watch the news! Automatically I shouldn’t take your advice on any subject when it comes to world events or history. It’s warped. It’s tainted. Your being and soul is corrupted. It takes a keen mind to watch television, I would argue it takes a mind that has studied the effects of the television, and has been away from the television for a large amount of time. Honestly, though, my biases if fair. With the small amound of knowledge I know, I know that the television is a tainted medium. Facebook is the television. It’s a worse form of the television. It’s trance state. Any of these modern technologies that put someone into pure receiving mode. With reading, you can at least think about what you have read. The problem with Facebook now is that it’s just short form videos with short amound of text. It’s also the style of reading, is skimming. The average person is not reading through every post. Not to mention the posts that show up are manipulated in a certain way. Social media is mental manipulation. This gives rise to social media cult leaders. They have real power!!! Someone like MrBeast for example, he can easily influence the population, with the amound of power he has. It’s also like, it signals where the mind of people are at right now, how broken down the human psyche truly has gotten. That’s why I have quit. No need for it. Garbage in, garbage out. I am garbage right now, I can admit that I am still very much in that state. That’s the first key to intation letting myself know that I am backwards and inverted. Looking into the damn mirror and admitting I was wrong. “I was wrong to neglect my physical body and watch YouTube all day.” “I was wrong to be anxious about this, my anxiety is something I really must improve.” The sad reality? Since I moved to this new city, I have already met someone who was INFLUENCING ME AGAINST CHANGE. I was saying that I had areas I had to improve, and they started negging me about it. It’s like, wild how as a species we are making fun of people who want to come out of their golem state. I am in a golem state. I was molded, by people I will never meet, to fit a certain role, from them to spiritually consume. At some levels, yes, I was food. I was spiritual and mental food for the so called elites. It’s possession. MrBeast, possesses people. It’s inherent to the medium though! It doesn’t matter who it is, at some level the form of communication has a bonding aspect. Like Jerry Mandler, I am not bonding with his personality, I am bonding to his depth and arguments. I can re-read that book, multiple times throughout my lifetime, to hone that understanding. Whereas MrBeast, is fleeting. It’s a televised image. There is no depth. I could go back and watch is videos, and for what? It serves no purpose. Reading a book, serves a purpose, watching something does not. It influences and manipulates. That’s why I am staying away from documentaries. That’s the lie. The lie that television or social media can be used for education. BIG OL' CROCK OF CRAP. Not true. The medium is tainted. It’s usage is for mind control, hypnosis. No thought required! When my family hung out after work, I would want to discuss an important topic, and they would say “i don’t want to think” ew, i just vomitted in my mouth a bit. YOU DON’T WANT TO THINK?????? That’s so gross, you ARE apart of the problem. YOU ARE APART OF THE SLAVERY SYSTEM. Now obviously, I am someone who was deeply traumatized by social media, the television, the golem states I lived in for many years. If I were to think about it, I really learned what it’s like to be a golem. It’s also tough though, as I still have so much work to come out of that state. It’s easy to slip back into ‘the matrix’ so to speak. Televisions, phones they are cheap. I could easily be thrown back into that system. So I have developed a way out. Instead, I write out these blogposts so at least I am putting my thoughts out there. Sure, I am not attracting as many people through my blog. People will see though. I will promote once I start honing in my posts. Right now, my posts are a bit ranty and rude. My newer ones won’t be as bad. I have also been cooking As a vegan I want to start baking and cooking. Reading. Cleaning. It’s the activities I fill my day with. Before, YouTube, doomscrolling, websurfing, video-games, maybe a walk and spotify? It’s a mirage, it’s just a pile of junk. Now it’s more structured. Like this morning, I decided to write a bunch of blogposts. Maybe i’ll journal. Maybe i’ll read. The tasks are more centered, where the phone and macbook or basically any form of high-techno-stimulus just leads to rot. LOL, I am such a neo-luddite. I have my kindle though. Using my MacBook Air, and Kindle. I like that. Although, I want my kindle and physical journal to be used more often. The physical journal will help me rant less, so I can rant on there, and actually put forth research inside. I’ve done well though. Since I woke up, I’ve been hammering away at the keyboard. Even though there isn’t much substance in this post, at the very least, I am working on my typing ability. So yes, the goal next is to get rid of my gaming consoles. Man, that’ll be rough, I’ll start with my DSes first. Keep the wii and gamecube and switch for a while. I can excuse that for party purposes. Right now the MacBook Neo and GrapheneOS phone have been wayyyyyy too addictive in it’s use. It’s been a distraction. I don’t feel the same way with my kindle or MacBook Air. These devices are better. Like I said though, maybe having the alternative be a physical book and journal. That’s like three layers. MacBook Neo and Graphene= really toxic, SMALLLL doses, MacBook Air (linux) and kindle = main compromise, great for reading and getting blogposts online, Journal and Physical Book = True Detox. Anyways, it’s a bunch of work.